I can't say it to you, so i'll just write it here.

 
To 18 people in my life.


You. I think you could be the first person I confide in. But every time there's a pause in conversation and I try to work up the courage to tell you, you start talking again.

You. I'm scared that you look up to me. Please don't. 

You.. never finished what you were going to say. 'I have something to tell you..' Are words that should ALWAYS be followed with more words.

You? You scare me. 

You. Your sadness is beautiful.

You. You don't know how lonely you are. 

You. Your opinion is the only one that matters.

You. Sometimes I don't think you even see me.

You. You've given me something to believe in.

You.. You're so messed up in the head and I like that.

You. Your life is so different from mine. 

You. I wish I was where you are.

You. You know exactly what to say to make all the insecurities come bubbling up again.

You. You make me want to laugh and groan at the same time.

You. Someday, when i'm done telling your story to an audience and they're giving you a standing ovation, you'll realize the magnitude of what you accomplished.

You. Remember the day you came over and hugged me and started crying? Thankyou for that. You reminded me how okay it is to be so vulnerable. 

You. I'm sorry. Your faith was exemplary and I have none of it.

You. We're the strangest best friends ever. But I trust you.